Little Moments & Cleanse: Day 4

Happy Friday! I am so very happy the weekend is upon us and that we can hopefully relax a little bit for a couple days. Like I mentioned yesterday, my husband has been working a lot of overtime lately and I am just looking forward to a couple days that don't involve any sort of work (well, paid work). I don't want to talk about it, think about it, or anything about it ALL.WEEKEND.LONG! I think I am just in a spring slump because I am itching for warm weather. The temps have been slowly creeping up but this time last year it was in the 70s, and the high today is 42. Sad face. I need warmth! I need a tan! I need sunshine!!!! Okay, rant over. Summer, just please hurry up and get here. This whole extended winter thing sucks a$$!! Moving on...

The reason why the first part of my title for this post is called "Little Moments" is because I had one last night. As a mother, this happens quite a bit actually. I love the time I get to spend with Kamden. Even if it's just feeding him his bottle, or changing his diaper and tickling him in the process, those moments I cherish so much. I seriously tear up as I type this. Every day is a reminder that time moves so fast and you can't get it back. Reading about different things happening around the world, crazy accidents, losing loved ones - it just really makes me take a step back and realize I need to enjoy the present, and really cherish the moments I have because some day I might not be able to.

Last night after we got home from visiting Bud's family, I picked Kamden up from his car seat and he immediately snuggled into my chest. Absolute best feeling in the world. I carried him to his room, laid him on his changing table, and he gave me the biggest smile. This little boy has the best and biggest smile I have ever seen. I am going to be in big trouble when he is older and is using that smile (and those eyes) to get away with things. It just melts my heart every.time. Anyway, after I got him changed and ready for bed, I laid him on my lap so that I could feed him before bed. At first, the kid is all over the place. I think he was past the point of being tired so his arms were all over the place - grabbing the bottle, flailing them in the air, rubbing his face, smacking the bottle, etc. He gets giddy like I do when I am over-tired. :) After about 10 minutes of this he started to calm down. He turned to me with those big blue eyes, grabbed my face and smiled. He stared at me the entire rest of the bottle with that sweet little face. Ahh I just love him so much. You see, it's moments like that, that really stick out for me. Those quiet moments, when we are just doing every day things, where you can just feel the love you have for that person and it just takes over. It's overwhelming, but in a good way. In a way where you don't know what you ever did before that person was here. I experience it with my husband, and now I get to experience it with my son. Wow. I have always wanted to be a mother but now that I am, I could not be more grateful. I love this life we have - even with the working overtime, the chaotic schedules, the house that stays clean for maybe an hour....I wouldn't have it any other way. :)

Whew! Now that I am sobbing at my desk, let's move on to my 4th day of the cleanse. I don't really have too much to say about yesterday because it was basically like the day before. I had my green smoothie for breakfast again (the last one I had prepped), spaghetti with organic sauce, turkey meat, and 100% whole wheat noodles, for lunch, and a turkey burger with cottage cheese and a salad for dinner. Not too shabby. We did have to up our willpower last night when we went to visit Bud's family because they had ordered pizza. Luckily it was all basically gone by the time we got there so we didn't have to longingly stare at it the whole time with googly eyes.

Yesterday after work I was determined to get my 3 mile run in. Luckily the stars aligned and KB fell asleep on the way home from picking him up and ended up sleeping for about 45 minutes. I was able to get home, run 3 miles, and shower before he woke up. It was perfect. Then by the time I was just about ready, Bud got home from work and was able to feed KB while I got dinner ready. We ate fast and then went to visit his family. It was a busy night but by the end of the day I had accomplished everything I wanted to, so I felt really good.

Welp, that's all I have for the day. Sorry to get all sentimental earlier, but everyone needs a good cry, haha.

See ya later suckas!!